Monday, October 30, 2006

Celebration Run

This week the folks at AIDS Marathon had us do something different. All the Honolulu trainees met at Griffith Park, while all the Florence runners, including little ole me, gathered at Santa Monica to do a 23-mile Celebration Run.

We met at Santa Monica High School at 7am, and it was immediately obvious that the day was going to be slightly different. Half of the site reps and coaches were in costume. My favorites were Team USA girl in blue, red and nifty sequin silver bracelets and Captain Awesome, “who took Jared’s place” and sported goggles and a red cape.

Now, before we run, our site reps and coaches will tell us how proud they are of us, review the course, and send us on our way. This time a rep from APLA came out and shared with us a letter he had recently received. The man who wrote the letter, thanking APLA, was tested positive back in 1985 and has not only managed to stay alive, but also managed to regain his life in the process. He said, at one point, that APLA was (paraphrasing) “so patient and helpful that my only choice was to move forward.” That can be said about the training program as well.

Receiving maximum motivation to take on 23 miles, we were sent on our way about 7:45 am. We strolled a couple blocks westward and entered the beach at Shutters. Immediately hooking south, we began our run.

It’s amazing how much distance you can cover, especially when it’s normally been measured by walking. The first major site we passed was Venice Beach still rubbing its eyes. It ends at Pacific Avenue, which is really Marina del Rey, and did a slight zig-zag into an alley that ran parallel with the beach, taking us into a sleeping residential area packed in tight with three-story beach bungalows of every architectural style. There are no streets here, only sidewalks, with small manicured lawns on either side, all leading their way to the shore.

We reached a turn-around point somewhere in the alley around 9am and as we started back towards the direction we came, we started seeing the city wake up. First we saw cute dogs of every size being escorted by their owners, then construction workers. As we passed through Venice Beach, store owners rolled up their metal doors and large street cleaners noisily made their way along the boulevard. Roller bladers and bicyclists started appearing in our path, as we noticed outdoor dining areas were starting to be sprinkled with patrons.

We past Shutters Hotel, our original starting point, and followed the path until it brought us to Temescal Canyon Road at Pacific Coast Highway. There we turned around again, eventually leaving the beach all together at San Vicente. From that point we ran beyond 26th street into Brentwood, looping through the neighborhood and enjoying a little hill running along the way. Eventually (you guessed it), we turned around and came back the same way we came, passing Santa Monica Pier for a second time until we reach the high school.

We arrived around 2pm, running 2:2 (that’s run 2 minutes, walk 2 minutes) for 6 hours at a very slow training pace. It was great to get a feel for the marathon would be like, but it was one we all struggled through. For some reason, Saturday was particularly warm for this time of year, reaching a high of 81 degrees. Despite the cool breeze coming off the Pacific, we battled with not having any shade cover.

Also, everyone was hurting. Many of us have problem areas by this point, and I must finally confess that includes me. Like quite a few kids in my pace group, I have the I-T band injury. It happened about a month ago, and I know all too well what that “sharp pain in the knee area” feels like. Fortunately, with Advil and a handy Ace knee brace, I don’t feel a thing during the run, but I started feeling a pull in my calve muscle on the opposite leg. I started laughing, “oh god, I’m going to be a mummy by the time I cross the finish line.” I was doing good in comparison to some of the other runners, who were battling I-T band with either ibuprofen or brace, pounding headaches, sore feet, and kinked shoulders. I don’t know anyone in our group who wasn’t suffering.

Yet, we had each other. There were so many volunteers who went all out by decorating their stands and overflowing with Halloween treats, that it provided a fun excuse to stop, rest the sore part of the body for a moment, and laugh easily for a moment. Also, many had signs that read “You are heroes”, and that sometimes would make me smile.

Most of all, though, it was my group that got me through those 23 miles. When we finally made it back to the high school, our site reps had created a finish line, complete with a finish line with an arch made of yellow and red balloons. As we crossed, our site reps were there and they gave us each a medal. The entire time I thought how I was standing there because of the group. As I looked around, all of sudden, I thought of that letter and realized, yet again, thanks to this program, “my only choice was to move forward”.

So, that’s that. After this, we meet for a couple 8-mile maintenance runs before we leave for Florence to do the actual marathon on November 26th.

Stay tuned and don’t forget to donate.

See ya!


Tuesday, October 17, 2006

The Top 10

This was a pretty easy week – only 10 miles. Only, right? I can barely believe it myself.

Well, all us kids are getting pretty excited as we approach 26 miles and our final destinations (Florence and Honolulu). Most of us by this point have booked our flights and now we’re in the midst of planning what we’re going to do. I have to start planning.

So to celebrate 10 miles becoming easy, here is my Top 10 list for why I like running in an AIDS Marathon:

10. My chances of ending up like Marlon Brando have significantly decreased. (I can eat, let me tell you.)

9. I can tell you the distance between places without an odometer. The length of marathon for most of us L.A. residents is simply called “morning commute.”

8. I no longer worry about being stranded without any money in this city. I can just run home if necessary. (Although I’m still gonna keep my AAA card.)

7. Not only have I met some amazing people, but seeing them every week gives me “the glass is half full” attitude towards life. And if I’m wrong, who cares? I’m too busy looking on the bright side.

6. I get to go to Italy.

5. Peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, yum.

4. Oranges, yum.

3. Did I mention that I get to go to Italy?

2. I get to help my friend, Stannie, and her family, keep Uncle Ronnie’s memory alive.

1. I’m affecting people’s lives in a positive way, possibly saving them, and without a doubt, keeping at least a handful of gay men looking fabulous. Oh-KAAY. (That affects us all folks. Think about it.)

Wow, I could keep going with that list, all jokes aside. It has been such a positive experience for me. I hope you had a good laugh and I’ll see you next week!

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Way of the Red Ribbon

This week was a rather special week. Aside from running 20 miles, we were all asked to wear red.

APLA wanted to create a red ribbon out of their runners, and boy, did we become exactly that! Think about it, the fastest group easily had to take two hours to run 20 miles, and my group clocked in a little over five hours. So with all of us involved, we became a ribbon that stretched for miles. How I would have loved watching us from above as we made our way through Griffith Park yesterday morning!

While the organizers explained to us that the purpose of wearing red was to reconnect us to our reasons for running, they also wrote:

“APLA was founded in the spirit of friendship over twenty years ago. You became part of that continuum by gathering to run each week and raising money to fight a disease that continues to elude us, but continues to bring us together. You are changing people's lives. I know you've heard it before, and you will continue to hear it as we get closer and closer to marathon day. Never forget that you are making a difference. Never forget the incredible courage and strength you have displayed. Never forget that you are a hero. Have an amazing run. Take it one step at a time. And remember...I will be there supporting you every step of the way.”

At first, when I read that I thought “how sweet” and started rummaging through my closet for something red. As I looked, I thought of Uncle Ronnie. I thought of my friend, Stannie, and her family still feeling his loss today. I thought of myself back in January holding the flyer in my hands thinking maybe I should do this. I thought of all the people I’ve known in my life that have struggled with their health. All these thoughts brought me to a knitted red shawl. I folded it over once until became a long ribbon and tied it around my waist.

Then, as we ran, every time I saw a fellow runner in red, those words of encouragement came back to me. Granted, it’s usual for us to cheer each other on, but something about the red made the words stick, take longer to evaporate or something.

That’s when it hit me… Every week, I receive and give this level of enthusiasm. And even crazier is that we’re all sincere about it, too. Stop and think about the last time, in full cheerleader mode, did said to a friend, “Woo-hoo, you’re awesome!” Or possibly hearing from a relative, “Way to go!” The folks at APLA love calling people “hero”. Try calling yourself a hero without laughing or without wearing a costume (you know who you are). It really has an amazing effect.

I notice it the most when I’m with the group, and with all of us wearing red, it’s impossible to ignore, because during the five hours or so that we run together, the conversation is always going and always fun. Complaints are hardly ever heard. We seem to never focus either on our frustrations from the week or the pain we might experience during our run. Our attention seems to be simply elsewhere.

And that’s just it, every week, when I connect to this feeling of support and good cheer, my focus shifts to what’s right in this world and what’s good about us. The part of me that’s scared or nervous is soothed, and I become again filled with joy and with hope. And slowly over the months, without me even noticing, a red ribbon has stretched its way out of me and gently weaved its way around everything in my life.

Perhaps we need to start calling each other heroes more often.

Monday, October 02, 2006

Just Keep Running

If FINDING NEMO was set on land rather than at sea, Dory might have been better known for saying, “Just keep running. Just keep running.”

And if there’s been any time that Dory has been known to float through my thoughts, well, it’s been this week, that’s for sure.

In many ways, this marathon, with all its mile markers, has charted the progress of my life’s transformation this year. It’s been quite a metamorphosis, long in the making. I can’t tell you how much of a joy (and relief!) it is to see all this finally happen this year, even despite the scary moments. And trust me, there have plenty of scary moments.

One of the big things that’s needed to happen for me to move forward in my life is to become my own boss. Working for the now and for the future has been a constant challenge for me throughout my life. I mean, how do you pay the bills now and work towards a dream that seems to be always just out of sight in some untouchable future? Or to put it another way, I didn’t know how I was going to make it through January, much less make a huge shift like this.

Yet, when I started training for this marathon, I had this thought that by the time I crossed the finish line, I would be my own boss, and nor have I been able to shake that feeling.

Well, now, as I approach 20 miles, I can officially and proudly say that as of today, I am my own boss. See, my job came to a surprise end this past week (that happens in showbiz) and rather than thinking of it as thought I’m out of work, I’m treating it as if I just started my new career. This time I’m working for me.

On the day I received the news about being laid off, just before any worry could set hold, my friend, Pasqual, called me. During our conversation, he said, “You know, that’s what I love about endurance sports. Once you run a marathon or bicycle 50 miles, it puts things into perspective, you know? Life just becomes easy.”

I had to laugh. It’s true, and I hadn’t even seen it in that way, because I’ve been too involved in the race itself. All this time, I’ve been focusing intently on the next mile. Too busy looking towards the finish line, waiting for it appear on the horizon. I haven’t even thought to look back. Yet, when I did, everything up to this point flashed before me:

Wow, 20 miles!

Wow, nine months of extraordinary change!

I’m here. I’ve made it this far. I’ve somehow made it this far!

And turning my head again towards the future, it does put things everything into perspective. What’s six more miles, really? Why do I still become unsure at times if things will work out? They always do. So I booked my ticket to Italy and I decided I’m going to stay a month. In my state of clarity, I figured, eh, it’ll work out.

So, I guess, in the end, it’s always that easy, and maybe the talent we try to develop is knowing that as we move forward rather than waiting to see it when we look back. And should we get a little lost, then all we have to do is remember:

Just keep running.




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Let’s also thank Pasqual for generously and brilliantly donating $18 to me… 18 times. That’s over $300 and a tidal wave of good luck. Thank you, Pasqual!




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Friday, November 3, 2006
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